This series lets other women who have had perinatal mood and anxiety disorders tell the stories of their suffering and healing. The length will vary based on what each mother has chosen to share, but my hope is that through each post, you will better understand PMADs , how to support women who have them, and clearly see God’s provision. Names are pseudonyms unless otherwise noted.
What does postpartum depression feel like?
(Journal entry from three months postpartum)
I feel depressed these couple weeks. I’m under so much pressure. There are times where I feel like I’m so alone, I’m always busy taking care of kids by myself, it always been so challenging to me. I have no one to ask or feel freely to ask. Everyone is busy all the time. I wish God will just take me now. I can’t do this anymore. I feel so tired, stressed and I can’t go on anymore. So much responsibility. I feel like I got no one to talk to about this.
What helped you recover?
I was able to find a nanny who’s willing to come to my house twice a week, for 3 months. It was the best investment I have ever spent on myself. That’s how I was able to recover postpartum.
What do you want others to know about postpartum depression?
For the woman who has postpartum depression, I want to say please seek for help, there’s many people who’s going through the same thing as you do. Please don’t feel like you are the only one.
For the church, please ask women who just gave birth how they are doing. Don’t just ask once, but continue to do so! Some postpartum depression last for months or year. Sometime we just need extra person to be with us, chat with us. To know we are not alone.
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